25TH SUNDAY IN ORDINARY TIME B
WALKING INTO THE
LIGHT
In his life, Jesus had to deal
with a lot of frustrations, the worst coming from his own disciples. He has just taught them the value of
carrying the cross like him and with him. Now in Mark’s chapter 9, Jesus
catches the disciples scheming about their future glory in an imagined earthly
reign of their Master. They were
arguing among themselves who was the greatest of all.
The disciples did not openly
quarrel about their ambitions.
They tried to hide all these squabbles from the Lord. And when found out, “they remained
silent,” that is, they were filled with shame.
The disciples thought it was safe
to discuss things among themselves, apart from Jesus. They dared not plan their projected ascent to power in the
presence of the Lord but actually, behind his back, so he would not hear, so he
would not know. But Jesus was
always sensitive to the people around him and he felt they were into something
again.
In a retreat I learned of human
beings’ natural tendency to hide from others what is ignoble and
dishonorable. We conjure up wicked
thoughts and do sinister acts far from the light, for fear of being
exposed. We commit our sins in
secret so as to more easily bury them again without others noticing. We believe that apart from the light we
become more free, more powerful, more in control.
But No! This is a deception.
It is the devil’s trick to convince us to keep these unworthy thoughts
and actions secret. My retreat
master was always strong on this point:
secrecy is a tool of the devil.
Many sins happen and continue to happen because the devil tempts us to
conceal things within ourselves, among our circles, until these things are out
of hand and have gotten worse.
If we consider our entire life,
what is in us that God does not know?
What actions and thoughts of ours are beyond the scrutiny of the Holy
Spirit? We think we are hiding,
but is there really room to hide under the rays of God’s love? The disciples
thought Jesus did not notice, but in his great love, Jesus was just waiting for
them to open their hearts so he could address their concerns and enlighten
their minds about their desires.
Like the disciples are there
things we try to hide from others who can best help us? Do husbands and wives freely share with
each other what’s happening to them at work or at home? Do children find it
consoling to consult their parents about their relationships? Do we reveal to our trusted friends our real struggles? Do employees reveal to their bosses
what they need to know about the office transactions? Do we come to Confession
to expose our interior burdens to the transforming and energizing grace of the
Lord?
Before the heart of Jesus, there
are no secrets. He knows what goes
on in our minds and hearts. And he wants to know them through us. Let us open our hearts to the Lord in
prayer and beg for his light. Let
us trust the people who care about us and allow them to help us in our
struggles.